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Message 136678 (In Reply to Message 136632)
I Fought Back

Posted by acts2413 on Jun 28, 2004 03:20 PM | Also by acts2413

Gender: Male, Age Bracket: 30 - 39, State: District of Columbia, Country: United States

Jake, I was saddened by your prison experience. I was locked up in Ohio. I did not commit the crime I was accused of, but I did the time as if I had and I understand what happened to you.

I on the other hand would not tolerate anyone in the same joint to speak down to me, harass me, or anything else. My twist: the prison I was in got all of the regional newspapers- so as my case worked it's way thru appeals- well- my story was often in the paper. Denying guilt of an offense was tough as well because the general sentiment (a fallacy, nevertheless) is that people dont lie about sex abuse. Well, my counter was that everyone on that side of the fence understood just how the police and prosecutors lie and corrupt the process. Most understood that since judges are elected in Ohio that it is not good politically for any judge/prosecutor to let anyone accused of a sex crime escape; innocent or guilty! All accepted that innocent people were convicted, BUT, somehow they had a hard time accepting that I was one of them because of the nature of the crime. Well, upon closer inquiry, I always found that my biggest critics- although they acknowledged all I've said- had REALLY been guilty of what they were convicted even though they denied it- so because they were truly guilty- then in their minds- everyone else had to be too. I made it clear that I alone was the expert of my case and knew exactly what happened and what didn't and noone in the joint could say for sure what happened. Anyone interested, I shared what really happened and showed the paperwork and proof. Others who just wanted to make trouble- I challenged and them and had to fight. Won most, lost a few. Gained respect. After the first few months, I didn't have any more trouble- at all. In fatc, as the case continued (still on appeal believe it or not), many watched how the story changed in the papers as the prosecutors/police kept spinning the facts. One final thing that worked for me- was as my brothers (anyone convicted is my brother) got to know me and staff saw me work, my lifestyle was different from the story in the papers.

I was accused of abusing two 14y/o boys. Ohio prisons have kids locked up as young as 12. They kept those under 18 in the same housing area, but they were out in population sharing the gym, rec yard, weight rooms, etc. Some had "sugar daddies". The point is I could have easily "continued" the same conduct that I was accused of right there had I been guilty. Yep, prisoners forget little. So, in my 3 years, I never was involved in any "inside scandals". This alone was a testimony against the allegations.

All that said- I fought back. I stood up for myself. The point was noone on that side of the fence was in any better position to harass me (regardless of my innocence) and I didn't stand for it in the first instance. Why didn't you fight back?

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Message 136632
Prison Life for a Pedophile

Posted by JakeLF on Jun 27, 2004 08:28 PM | Also by JakeLF

Gender: N/A, Age Bracket: N/A, State: N/A, Country: United States

Prison for me was a really scarey place to be. I looked back on what maybe my victims may have felt when they were with me sexually and I understood what I did was very bad. I betrayed childrens trust by acting out sexually with them. I had always heard rumors about how sex offenders are treated in prison. I got to witness it up front. Each group of inmates had there own groups, murders, drug pushers and users and all that, gangs and etc. Sex Offenders really didn't hang out together and there weren't any groups I hung out in. I tried to keep my reason for being there very low key. I ended up making something up for the first few weeks I was there just so I wouldn't get harrassed from other inmates.

Then after awhile somehow it got leaked that I was up there for molesting children and that was it. I was the scum on the floor in the prison. I would walk around and guys would run into me on purpose and say watch your back chester and things like that. My cell roomate ended up raping me the first night that it was discovered that I was a pedophile. I was in extreme pain after that happen and all he said was that now I knew how those kids felt. In a way I knew that I really couldn't be angry because more or less I was scum, I had been sent to this place for doing something sexual against young children that cannot give verbal consent to sexual acts. I thought about all the children that I molested over the years and I felt so bad, my gut would hurt when I thought about it.

I was stabbed, beaten a few times and raped so many times that I can't even count the times. Just to get a break from it for awhile I ended up getting into this fight with this pretty femmy guy that was in there just to go to solitare to be protected for a few months. Once I got out it was pretty much the same, inmates don't forget anything. Guards treated me badly as well as the inmates. If I tried to tell anyone I would have made it worse, so I kept quiet. I sat back and thought I deserved everything that happend to me.

I remember my parents visiting me on my 5th year in, the first time in 5 years. They asked me why I did what I did with my niece, I explained that I wanted to have control over her and a part of me found her very attractive. My dad pretty much was disgusted with me and asked how the heck I could find a 7yo girl to be attractive sexually, I just basically responded by saying that I did, which was true. My parents left disgusted and only came back a few months later to tell me that they didn't want anything to do with me ever again, so when I would get out they would give me the key to the storage shack where all my stuff was, but that I would no longer be wanted in the family. It was real hard to take that all in. My parents were telling me this in the visitor center and my mind was elsewhere. I was sitting at the table and another inmate with his wife and two young daughters were visiting. Not even realizing what I was doing I was starring at the guys 5yo daughter and he say that and he came over to me and he started to hit me and started calling me names associated with child molesters. I didn't even realize I was looking at her until I started feeling the pain from his punches.

I am not trying to have anyone feel sorry for me by being in prison and having these things happen to me. In a way I am glad that those things did happen to me, I was let off really easy. I always wished I would of been stabbed in the right place then I would have never worried about anything ever again. I hurt children and there is no forgiving for that, I will always be a bad person for doing that. Nobody wants to forgive a man who has intercourse with a child, its just a really sick act, but yet I did it all the time to children.

I am glad that I was caught, it prevented future children from being molested by me. In the end prison was the best thing that ever happen to me.

PS - Please do not ask what prison I was in, because i am not going to disclose that, thanks

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136632, JakeLF, Jun 27, 2004 08:28 PM [Prison Life for a Pedophile]
      136641, dp1, Jun 27, 2004 11:13 PM [Jake]
            136665, Silverthorne, Jun 28, 2004 06:16 AM [Rape]
      136678, acts2413, Jun 28, 2004 03:20 PM [I Fought Back]
            136687, fallenone, Jun 28, 2004 07:19 PM
                  137033, tryingtosurvive, Jul 07, 2004 01:20 PM [Prison is a stupid place]
                        137038, dp1, Jul 07, 2004 02:49 PM [TTS]
                              137126, tryingtosurvive, Jul 09, 2004 12:58 PM [I was on remand..]

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