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Message 124928 (In Reply to Message 124903)
Silver

Posted by dp1 on Jan 13, 2004 02:49 PM | Also by dp1

Gender: Female, Age Bracket: N/A, State: Florida, Country: United States

[quoteI can "see" how someone can do something like this. I'll never understand though how someone can NOT resist. I mean I've been controlling my life all along. I get angry when I read about people who give in and hurt others.

No kidding! There's no excuse other than anger getting the best of them. You're a better person than I am I guess. I see no reason to forgive the offender BEFORE you forgive yourself. Forgiving yourself and accepting the fact that it was a selfish act on his part seems like the key to healing as far as I see it. It is so confusing from the child victim standpoint as to why the child could not say, "No" or stop the abuse some way. You were guilty of innocence which he decided to take from you without permission.

Silver, you hinted at religion in your post and how it affects values on marriage. How do your religious values effect how a victim of sexual abuse is viewed? Homosexual behavior? Is it viewed as something dirty? Nasty? Would you be judged as being less than a man if you had sex with a man or allowed yourself to become a victim? Sometimes I think we view ourselves and judge ourselves too harshly because we "think" society would view it that way which is normally the furthest thing from the truth. I have noticed that most people are much more forgiving than previously expected.

DP1

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Message 124903
Victim Questions - answers from Silverthorne

Posted by Silverthorne on Jan 13, 2004 06:25 AM | Also by Silverthorne

Gender: Male, Age Bracket: N/A, State: Arizona, Country: United States

Good questions DP1,  Ill try to answer them for you.

<blockquote>"Ive never really thought of myself as a victim.(silverthorne) 
What do you mean? (DP1)"</blockquote>

I guess I mean Ive been so wrapped up in other problems in my life I've never really viewed myself as a traditional "victim".  I mean in retrospect I've been damaged far worse then most abuse victims yet I didn't really view myself as a victim because it wasn't helpful at the time.  Victim=Anger.  Maybe I was avoiding the anger I feel now?

<blockquote>"Have you really forgiven this man? Really? Or is it just a nice thing to say because you have Christian values and choose not to show your anger? Can it be true that you’ve forgiven him and not yourself?"</blockquote>

Actually yes I forgave him.  You forget my problems sexually have forced me to understand just how something like this happens.  I can "see" how someone can do something like this.  I'll never understand though how someone can NOT resist.  I mean I've been controlling my life all along.  I get angry when I read about people who give in and hurt others.

<blockquote>"I don’t buy any of that Silver; it’s all rhetoric to justify why you don’t get on with life and engage in an adult/adult relationship. Why not just get right to it and say that you’re scared to approach adults (male or females) for the purpose of a satisfying relationship? "</blockquote>

Yes and no.  I am very paranoid about letting people close to me.  But dont forget I'm not sexually attracted to them.  I guess if a "satisfying relationship" can be had without sex I'd be capable of having one?

<blockquote>"Sorry. My denial continues. If you hated people you wouldn’t even be interacting on this site. I haven’t seen any evidence of hate for humanity in your posts. You are always polite, friendly and respectful of others. If you hated people your posts would reflect anger, disrespect and zero tolerance for other viewpoints."</blockquote>

Most victims of sexual abuse will be able to relate to this.  Its "the act".  The act is what you do when your around other people.  They think your happy, getting by fine, enjoying life.  I go out with a smile, Im friendly, even today I had a guy comment to me "your very outgoing" (he was trying to offer me a job - I was a customer).  I'm kind of the same way here.  While I'm not "lying" or anything here I am able to maintain this facade because I'm anonymous.  Its easier to talk about yourself this way.  My "hatred" of humanity is a little misstated.  I guess it would be better to say I enjoy my own company.  I like to be alone.  I often find myself very anxious around other people.  It all relates to retreating into a shell.  Another common behavior of abuse victims.

<blockquote>"Why would you love the idea about marrying a women if you weren’t attracted? Obviously you are attracted to women or you wouldn’t have this thought. "</blockquote>

Im in love with the "image" of marriage.  You forget I'm a Mormon.  Religion and marriage is a big deal in my church.  I love the "image" of marriage.  In other words I'd like to feel what my married friends obviously feel.  Im upset that I dont.

Good questions DP1

Silverthorne

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124677, Silverthorne, Jan 11, 2004 12:02 AM
      124693, dp1, Jan 11, 2004 02:49 AM [Victim Issues]
            124702, Silverthorne, Jan 11, 2004 05:44 AM [Victims]
                  124718, dp1, Jan 11, 2004 03:02 PM [What About?]
                        124755, Silverthorne, Jan 11, 2004 07:48 PM
                        124762, steve, Jan 11, 2004 07:55 PM
                  124729, orolan, Jan 11, 2004 05:26 PM
                        124739, dp1, Jan 11, 2004 06:45 PM [Yes]
      124761, Silverthorne, Jan 11, 2004 07:54 PM [The other "big thing" Im angry about]
      124896, dp1, Jan 13, 2004 05:00 AM [Questions for Silver]
            124903, Silverthorne, Jan 13, 2004 06:25 AM [Victim Questions - answers from Silver...]
                  124928, dp1, Jan 13, 2004 02:49 PM [Silver]
                        124947, Silverthorne, Jan 13, 2004 04:37 PM
      125011, dp1, Jan 14, 2004 09:03 AM [Victim Therapists]
            125032, Silverthorne, Jan 14, 2004 06:02 PM
      125016, Rachel, Jan 14, 2004 03:07 PM [My thoughts]
            125033, Silverthorne, Jan 14, 2004 06:18 PM [To Rachel]
                  125180, PVulcan, Jan 16, 2004 06:59 AM [Rachel]
                        125281, Rachel, Jan 17, 2004 08:50 AM [Wish I lived in th USA]
                              125603, PVulcan, Jan 20, 2004 10:07 AM [Rachel]

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Victim Questions - answers from Silverthorne