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Forum: Victims and Survivors Corner
Thread (Discussion): Survivor's Story (Forever)
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Message 120152 (In Reply to Message 120132)
The Escape
Posted by SurvivorForever
on Oct 20, 2003 04:17 AM | Also by SurvivorForever
| Gender: Female,
Age Bracket: N/A,
State: California,
Country: United States |
Silver - yes GHB is a date rape drug. I found closure when he was taken into custudy. I then knew he was not going to hurt ANYONE for at least a while. Yes - therapy was somethinf I did. I needed to know if what I was feeling was normal. I needed to hear it for others. I am more secure after this then at any other time in my life. I NEVER second guess my feelings. No checking & re checking of locks. I know if anything ever happens again like this - someone is going to die. I will NEVER let someone do this to me again.
– The Escape:
The drug had started to wear off and I was lying in the cab of his truck. He was standing outside when he must have heard me moving around.
He got into the truck and I sat up. He asked me if I was feeling better and told me I had too much to drink. I knew better. I had never felt that in my entire life and had not since that night.
He started the truck and I asked him where we were going. He told me he was going to take me to a beautiful spot in the woods, rape me again, shoot me and dump by body there after he was done. He began to laugh and said this to me with a smile on his face.
His smile NEVER left his face.
I remembered that he had said his gun was in the car. I lost my composure. I began to shake uncontrollably. I thought of my daughter, my family and my mom. I thought “How can I die in a way that someone would find my body”.
I remembered that my cell phone was on the seat of the truck. Without him seeing me do it, I grabbed the phone, hiding it and moved it to my right hand. Between the seat and the passenger door, in one hand, I dialed 911. I began to laugh (playing along with him) and asked him (as the phone was on) where we were, what his full name was, where are you taking me again, what are you going to do to me and a ton of other questions. He answered ALL the questions. I looked down at the phone, the call never went through. I dialed the number again, this time in plane site of him. He asked me who I was calling and I didn’t answer. He asked me again and I ended the call as he was taking my phone away. I knew (at the time) this guy was going to kill me and I would never see my family again. At that moment, the only option I had left was for me to play along. I knew this guy was sick, and this was ALL about control.
We got to the spot where he wanted to take me. I gave into every demand and made him feel like a king. I humbled myself at times, but at other times when I could not handle the pain I screamed out for him to stop. At one time, I told him “I think I am falling for you”. Hoping, praying maybe he would take that as a hint to have control for a while and MAYBE let me go.
He finished and said to me, he was used to having ruff sex. It was his way. He laid out the ground rules of what a relationship with him was supposed to be. He told me His had better been the biggest and him the best I had ever had and he had to believe it otherwise I would have to pay dearly.
I could not believe he was talking like this. I took full advantage.
I told him what he wanted to hear. I told him I could fall “deep” for him. I told him I REALY wanted to see him again. The entire conversation, I NEVER showed ANY fear. It was like someone else had entered my body and took over. There was a lot of fast thinking and great acting going on and it was working.
He started his truck. I asked him where we were going and he sand –“You have to be up early for work - home”
We drove out of the woods, for what seemed to be hours. We pulled off onto the road and I could not believe he was taking me back. My heart was pounding out of my chest. I never showed ANY emotion. He stopped for gas and would not let me exit the truck. I told him I would go pay and he grabbed my purse and took a twenty and went to pay (at a window 5 yards away.)
I sat in the truck – breathing VERY heavy. I could not move. It never entered my mind to run. He was to close.
A woman pulled up at the pump in front of his and got out to get gas. He walked back to the truck shouting at the woman very crude and vulgar comments. I sat and looked at her as she glared back. I hoped she would not say ANYTHING back. I tried to get her attention and shake my head no; I put my hand up and waved in a way to let her know NOT to do ANYTHING to provoke him. She got into her car and drove off. He took me back to my car. The conversation that followed was so eerie. He NEVER brought up sex again. He did not talk about what he did to me. He (other then the anger outbursts) was different. Like something snapped back into place in this twisted head.
He took me to my car. He dropped me off at my car. Before I was able to leave, He made plans for a second date for the following night. I agreed. Knowing whole heartedly I would not be alone. He kissed me goodnight, I got into my car and he followed me for a while, and then disappeared.
Dealing with every police department in my PI position, I knew where they were all located. I could not remember how to get there after this had happened. I dialed the police for directions and I drove straight to station. When I entered the station, I broke down before I could get a word out. They knew something had happened to me. I was filthy and bleeding. I regained composure and filled them in on EVERYTHING.
Survivor.
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Message 120132
Wow
Posted by Silverthorne
on Oct 19, 2003 11:45 PM | Also by Silverthorne
| Gender: Male,
Age Bracket: N/A,
State: Arizona,
Country: United States |
Thread
120058, SurvivorForever, Oct 18, 2003 08:43 AM [Red Flags - Go With The Gut Feeling ALL TH...]
120082, dp1, Oct 19, 2003 01:03 AM [Awesome Real Life Story!]
120106, orolan, Oct 19, 2003 04:17 PM [Oh!]
120154, SurvivorForever, Oct 20, 2003 04:23 AM [orolan - it's ok]
120158, myoung, Oct 20, 2003 04:33 AM [Reply to Oh]
120159, SurvivorForever, Oct 20, 2003 04:34 AM [CREDIT]
120132, Silverthorne, Oct 19, 2003 11:45 PM [Wow]
120152, SurvivorForever, Oct 20, 2003 04:17 AM [The Escape]
120162, myoung, Oct 20, 2003 05:16 AM [Marta]
120196, myoung, Oct 20, 2003 04:10 PM [survivor forever]
120211, SurvivorForever, Oct 20, 2003 11:09 PM [Myoung]
120225, SurvivorForever, Oct 21, 2003 12:33 AM [The Capture - End of story]
120230, Silverthorne, Oct 21, 2003 01:00 AM [Equalizer]
120237, Rachel, Oct 21, 2003 02:05 AM [A true survivor]
120243, SurvivorForever, Oct 21, 2003 05:08 AM [RE; Rachel]
120241, dp1, Oct 21, 2003 04:11 AM [DP1's Version of A Good Ending]
120519, orolan, Oct 26, 2003 05:21 PM
120546, dp1, Oct 27, 2003 04:15 AM [Failure To Eat Fetuccini Alfredo]
120566, orolan, Oct 27, 2003 02:16 PM [Pot Roast]
120619, dp1, Oct 28, 2003 02:47 PM [Substantial and Technical Vi...]
120632, Silverthorne, Oct 28, 2003 09:42 PM [Question for DP1]
120641, dp1, Oct 29, 2003 02:33 AM [False Reporting]
120644, Silverthorne, Oct 29, 2003 04:11 AM [What if?]
120655, dp1, Oct 29, 2003 04:50 AM [Lying to a Prob...]
120677, Silverthorne, Oct 29, 2003 05:13 PM
120691, dp1, Oct 29, 2003 10:32 PM [What Kind...]
120692, Silverthorne, Oct 29, 2003 10:53 PM
120700, dp1, Oct 29, 2003 11:54 PM [Vic...]
120234, SurvivorForever, Oct 21, 2003 01:23 AM [myoung (my heart goes out)]
120239, myoung, Oct 21, 2003 03:35 AM [thanks for that]
120504, lj, Oct 26, 2003 08:49 AM [Another "survivor" of a different situation]
120528, PVulcan, Oct 26, 2003 06:49 PM
120552, lj, Oct 27, 2003 08:05 AM [survivor vs victim label]
120562, SurvivorForever, Oct 27, 2003 01:54 PM [All Is Back To Normal]
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